An Angel's Absence

Today, 9 \ 9 \ 1431 (Arabic Calendar), the ninth of Ramadan, is the third remembrance of my beloved aunt’s death. I do not know what to do. Yesterday I could not do anything than lie on my bed all the day. All her memories and scenes pass in front of my eyes one after the other. And then my eyes started to shed tears. I lost my appetite; as I had no desire to do something except to cry. Moreover, what makes it more complicated? Where is my family?

There is no one to wipe my tears away. I went through all kinds of emotions, sadness, worry, fear, guilt and exhaustion. From time to time, my emotions are mixed together in ways I have never experienced once before.

Should I tell my mother? No, I can’t. Why? Of course because she is her younger sister. It would be more difficult for her. I may hold back my own grief and avoid talking about my aunt, because I am worried that it would make my parents and other family members sad. So who can listen to me? Each person has sad memories.

Therefore, all I'm thinking now is to sleep until the end of this day and also to pray for my aunt, for mercy. May Allah rest her soul in peace .


Elaine, Gareth, Holly, Sam and all my classmates I hope you understand. So, would you please forgive my absence yesterday and today?